Repetitive and long winded

Do you wonder sometimes when do I get sometime off alone?  I got a little tips for ya.  Late night driving ALONE, preferably on a highway so you don't get that many traffic lights.  I'm serious y'all.  I was kinda on an auto pilot while driving home tonight.  As usual my wednesday night ends a little after midnight, tonight it was just Hanafi and I.  Most of tonight, I was tidying up our storage room, it's been in a mess since last friday.  =)  Feeling pretty peaceful inside, though two men pissed me off big time.  These two men are one of our client's drivers, while I was killing myself lugging big heavy bags into the office.  They just STOOD there and WATCHED.  I was like oh my fucking god.  Not like they don't know me, not like they don't know we have to do this every wednesday.  I mean are ppl really that dense in they heads?  

Hey, back to my lonely drive home.  I truly enjoyed it. Every single time.  I could go like 40mph and no one would be bothering me.  I could go like 100mph and I wouldn't bump into anyone ^^.  Most of the times, I go SLOW, real SLOW...  Enjoying the peace that we normally don't get driving during daytime.  You will get more than just peace in mind, you will also get cool midnight air for free!!!!  Turn off your a/c baby and enjoy the ride.  =)  I love it, I believe you'll love it too.  

Am listening to a song that reminds me of old times...  Don't Know Why-- Nora Jones.  Tomorrow is my Marketing Director's last day with us.  After work, we'll head over to Saisaki, the Japanese Buffet Restaurant, supposedly good food.  =)  I could careless about the food, I just wanna chill with them.  Oh on the side note, just in case you're wondering how come my recent posts have no pictures.  That's because I don't have time to upload them onto the bucket.  Ya know, my weekends don't belong to me.  However, you have a little more time on hand.  Please check out this website.

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Hang on, am chatting with Rina.  I gotta end it here.  Adios!!!

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What do you do when

two are best friends, but haven't spoken to each other in months?  

You communicate through another best friend!!!  This best friend knew exactly what to say to these two best friends.  LOL.  Great friends.  Both of us misses each other.  For some reason, we didn't get to...  It was so nice knowing she had asked of me and I do the same wishing to know if she is well.  Basically us girls will always stick together whether if we're talking on a daily basis or not.  I want to dedicate them the song that I'm putting on repeat tonight.  R. Kelly Step In The Name Of Love.  This song always reminds me how we used to get our grooves on  Thurs, Fri and Saturday nights!  

Now back to ME.  The narcissistic me.  I worked hard this weekend y'all.  My work kicked my butt.  My legs and feet are killing me.  I was stuck in traffic on my way back to KL, thank god for Zaidi and Hanafi.  We were in the car joking, laughing out loud and gossiping.  They made my drive home seemed shorter  ^^  Though I did have me a lil fun partyin with them peeps on Sat night.  I wore orange polo T (for work) and a black short short skirt (for me) ;)  Yea I celebrated Halloween a lil earlier.  Hehehe  Just in case you are wondering, party was only the dessert, work was our main course for the night.  I felt like a headless chicken.  Human beings drove me nuts but I gotta pretend that I like em, how ironic?  

Our sale just for this weekend, guess how much?

Feeling romantic again tonight.  That's why I put on my R Kelly playlist.  I missed home so much while I was away.  I told Hanafi that.  And he was like err How did you made it through those years in Hawaii and Chicago?  Hehehe.  

I have two questions here I want you to ask yourself.  Are you grateful to be alive?  And why is that?  Come on tell me, I'd love love love to know...  =)

Mixed feelings

It is 1202am.  I'm feeling so sleepy.  Can't go to bed yet coz I gotta pack for this weekend.  Where to?  WORK.  Nothin much to pack, just a few work Tshirts, PJs, pants, towel, and ETC.  Too lazy to dig out my bag. Ah~ also charging my camera battery right now.  Tomorrow morning, I have to go put gas in my car and air in my wheels.  Everything has to be done before 730am.  Hmm... like 7 1/2 hours from now eh?  

Came home quite early tonight from work, around 9pm.  Showered and chatted with my mother.  Was too tired to look for food.  Took a little nap.  Woke up.  Saw my phone with two missed calls from my baby and one text from Erin.  Called Erin coz needed to talk to me.  Spoke to her, she was shook up.  Tried my best to calm her down.  Poor thing, she has more than enough on her emotional plate, doesn't need extra crap.  

Am listening to Lenny Kravitz- It ain't over til it's over.

Am listening to LAX- Forget you.  Chicagoans love this song.  It was on B96 for the longest time.  

Am listening to Koffee Brown- After party... ol skool jam baby.  LOVE IT!

I need to be in bed by now.  Coz I have drive tomorrow to PD.  Work is slowly killin me.  I knew it.  Ermm my boss won't be happy if he sees this.  LOL.

A thought just popped into my head.  I miss my grandma dearly.  

I can't believe there are still people reading my blog.  Reading it?  OR did they just accidently bumped into this site??  =)         

Alright, good night y'all.  I'll leave you with this quote.  

  

"Whatever it is that you're doing, don't forget that I love you."-- My baby

Blessed to have you and I am grateful

This past sunday was well spent.  Hung out with an old friend of mine.  We pigged out together at Italiannies.  Us two girls ordered Fettucine Alfredo and a margherita pizza.  The waitress was like errmm just to remind you, our portion is big and is for sharing.  I said yes I am aware.  So we waited and waited for our food.  The pasta showed up first.  First thing I thought was, dang I could finish this all by myself!!!  What she talking bout it's for 2-3 sharin?  LOL.  My friend thought the same.  Well, we basically finished every single bite.  On top of her Diet Coke and my brewed coffee.  Muahahahah!  The food is great!  Just that not enough mozzarella on the pizza dampened my mood a little.

After our pig out session she went crazy shopping!!!  They have such great sales in Forever 21 and Promod.  Great apparels and even greater prices.  =)  We walked and talked and shopped.  Around nine-ish.  We decided that it's time to leave.  But I was like, I don't feel like going home just yet tho I'm feeling dog tired.  Heheheh.  So, we went to a place where we could have some chinese dessert.  Sat down ate some more and chatted some more.  I love it!!!!!  After that, it really was time to go home and sleep.  I dropped her off at her house.  That's when it hits me hard.  She was going back to an empty house...  Only her dog was excited to see her...  The house was dark, what if some uninvited guest were in there???  Her mother passed few years back, sisters are overseas...  She was going back to an empty house.  She has to go back to an empty home every single day...  She has no one, at home waiting for her, asking her how her day has been. *sob*

Then I thought to myself.  I should be grateful every single moment because I know someone is waiting for me at home.  I should be kneeling on the floor and thanking god that I have a home.  I mean oh my gosh, I knew for the fact that my friend lives alone for the longest time since her mom passed.  But never once I saw it with my own eyes.  To me, it is the saddest thing.  Makes me want to cry.  Take some time out and think this through.  If you're living with your family, please believe me, you are very very fortunate.  

I am grateful for my family

I am grateful for ALL of my friends

I am grateful for my coworkers

I am grateful for my boss

I am grateful for being alive

I am grateful

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Life is like a box of chocolate. You'll never know what you're gettin.

I agree. Whenever I open up a box of chocolate I would stare at it for minutes (Godiva or Fannie May's would be great examples here), I wouldn't know where to start from. Some might be nutty, some have nuggets inside, some might be gooey, all sorts! After a bit of an unnecessarily rationalizing, I would close my eyes and pick a piece and bite it in half just to see what I got. Sometimes I love what's inside, sometimes I don't... sounds just like life isn't it?

Today was long. So long that I couldn't remember where it started, where it ends. I know everyone around me is stressed out too. Sure deep down inside everyone's wondering when will this be over??? My old job made me long for something new, this job made me miss my old job like never before. I knew my s***. I was productive. I had my crazy chicas and mamas. I had Mexican food for lunch.

How much I've complained bout how tired I am. Still, I'm sitting here at 1216am writing to you. That's because I treasure my time alone. With only the sounds of a peaceful night. How I appreciate a time when there is no phones ringing and I have to pick it up and say Hi this is MEE*, how may I help you?

While I'm actually thinking how/why did Mariah married Nick??

While my eyes are browsing through ppl on the streets.

While also trying to reply some emails.

Boy, I can really multitask.

Today at 659pm, I received a text that says: "Babe, I just want to remind you that I love you so much.." And so the silence conversation went on...

Last night, I slept at 130am, woke up at 430am, slept, woke up again at 730am. Gave up on trying to sleep.

Yo guys, another week has passed. A month is almost over AGAIN. I'm feeling chilly, wind is coming in from my windows. I have so many movies that I wanted to see. I have shopping urge to fulfill. How are you doing in keeping your new years resolution???? WHAT, you asked. I said yes YOUR new years resolutions! Mine, I have really cut down on my french fries consumption. But I still can't stop me from swearin. Donald used to say, gosh you need to wash your mouth with a bar of soap. And I would just laugh! LOL! In my heart I was thinking, no one can stop me from me saying what I wanted to say and how I say it. Well, it is a little bit difficult here in Malaysia. People don't like bluntness. My coworkers have told me to tone down a little. =) I do keep that in mind guys. At work, I try to stop myself from simply running my mouth. Do you know how hard that is? God Malaysians. I am one too. LOL.

My bed is calling my name. I have to go. Let's not piss more ppl off today Yash. ^^

I love you guys. Night.

Refuse to sleep

It is 1:04am.

I don't wanna go to bed. I'm feeling so freakin romantic and nostalgic. Had a tiny celebration at work for Hanafi today, one cake and six of us. I was looking through the pictures, thinking it was only three months ago that I met Hanafi and Zaidi. But we're really close, we talk about everything, we stick together when work gets real tough. We always tell each other, if us three stick together no matter what's going on, we will be ok! =) I love those guys.

Ah~ There is another guy that I gave my utmost love to... Gave this person a full body massage about three hours ago, my hands, my shoulders are sore now from working too hard. This guy is not easy to work through. Compare to my previous practice "objects" Lisa and Kimmy, he's got more muscles packed on than anyone I know. At times, I even have to use my elbow. LOL. Giving massages is the best feeling in the world. Soon, I'll find time to give my mama and papa massages as well. ;)

Hopelessly romantic. Listening to Usher and Monica Slow Jam, Trey Songz Gotta Make It, Trey Songz I Gotta Go, Tony Toni Tone Anniversary.

Spoke to an old friend about an hour ago. Was helping him with English--> Cantonese translation. Hehehe. That went real interesting. Coz first of all, my formal Cantonese is shit AND having to translate it and sounds professional totally blew my mind. Translation is not easy to do. I give props to ppl who does this for a LIVING!!! Anywho, it went well. I had to translate from this to a cantonese voicemail massage:

"Thank you for calling the information line for the Transit Effectiveness Project at the San Francisco Municipal Transportation Agency. The formal public comment period on the draft TEP proposals has ended. The project team will be distributing a summary of the proposed revisions to everyone on our project mailing list before they are presented to the SFMTA Board of Directors in September 2008.To sign up for the mailing list, please visit our website at www.sftep.com or leave us your contact information after this message. Thank you for calling."

Brain power required but it was a fun thing to do once in a while! =) Thank you Carleton for giving me this opportunity. Great talking to you again. ^^ You're welcome to visit me anytime since I won't be going back to states anytime soon ya. I met this guy a good six years ago, from when I wasn't even 20 til this day that I'm quarter of a century old. Hmm...

Someone tested my patience AGAIN today. This lovely client of mine. Won't speak too much about it because my new motto is Shut Up and Do. Ya digg?

It is now 1:30am. I suppose I should be in bed by now. I still don't want to. Air is cool, night is peaceful. I want to enjoy it. So just let me.

Bye for now!!! MUAKSSS.

Closer

Heheheh... here we go again.  Flashbacks, nostalgic, whatever you call it.  As I'm sitting here uploading some new pictures.  I'm listening to Goapele's Closer.  This song brought me right back to summer of 2006. 

I could remember clearly, it was a very very warm summer.  It was so warm that the temperature would sometimes hike up to 102F.  I was "cruisin" in my little golf listening to this song with my windows down.  You're wondering why the heck would you drive with your windows down in this type of HEAT~~~  I can tell you one thing, gas is really expensive in Chicago.  =)  So I had to save gas by NOT turning on the AC.  I still remember, I would try to save as much money on gas during summer because I know for the fact that I can't be savin gas money during winter time. So yea, I was cheap (still am), I would rather sweat my balls off (if I have any) than freeze to death during winter in Chicago... =P  

Back to my point, I had this song on repeat all summer because it has this cooling effect on me.  ^^  When I'm on my way to work in the morning, I'd listen to B96 my favorite station ever!  Eddie, Jobo, and Erica.  When they aren't on, guess what song would be on repeat again?  LOL

On the side note, I really have to stop living in my past huh?  =)  I always tell Erin, I miss/think about Chicago more than I think about Hawaii is because Chicago is where I have lived my real adult live.  I work, I live on my own, I met my awesome coworkers, I cook in my little apartment, I do grocery shopping at my favorite store => Jewels!, I do almost everything there that I couldn't do in Hawaii.  In Hawaii, I had all the help and company from so many people, my best friends Erin and Rina of course, my roommates Lisa and Effa, and those really hot military men.  ^^

On the side side note, there is this one friend of mine.  She loves and is the only one calling me Yasha Basha til this day.  Miss you girl!  Meghan Lane.

I truly believe that some songs are the theme songs for different stages of your life.  

*I'm listening to Let's Chill by Guy.  Great song

To you, my love

When I first met you, I wasn't sure about anything.

When I meet you for the second time, I still wasn't sure about anything.

In fact, I wasn't sure if I could ever love again.

Remember, I was so rude and crude to you?  I was protecting myself that way.

But you didn't give up on me.  You kept telling me that you've fallen for me and hope that one day I would open myself up for you.

Under your persistent pursue, I finally willingly allowed you into my life.

It was you who taught me to love again.

It was you who asked me to give you a call at every red lights I come to when I was driving home one late night.  Reason you gave was simple as I just want to make sure you are really okay.  

It was you who taught me to kiss again.  It wasn't easy to do.  

You've often ask me why do I love you?

...

Because you've brought positive light and hope into my life.

Because you do not allow me to dwell in my negative past.

Because you've said you love me and you'll never forget that I love you too.

Because I want you in my life.

Because you put other's happiness before yours.

Because of the serious side of you when it comes to work and business.

Because I feel secured at your presence.

Because you realized my weakness and aren't afraid to let me know.

Because you stopped me from comparing you to the general male species.

Because you want me to see you without any preconceptions that I may have.  

Because you know me, you know I am very impatient and you're helping me to be less of that. 

 I thank you for this.

Because we communicate through our issues which arose from our differences.

...

This short little passage can't even begin to let you know how much my heart longs for you.

Miss you

I.  Desperately missing someone tonight.  

Though I saw this person just last night.  

There is no way I could explain how much I miss.  

Especially today.  What happened today.  

I.  Desperately needed a shoulder I could lean on and a soul to be with.   

At last, I chose to be with, just me.  

Because space and time is much needed.

Am enjoying Michael Buble at this very moment.  

Am enjoying writing to you at this moment.

While avoiding what I am suppose to do.  

Which is sorting, cleaning, tossing.  

I still miss him.  Spoke to him on the phone minutes ago.  

It was just not satisfying.  

Because nothing beats a kiss on the forehead and a body that keeps you warm...

I will leave. To sort, clean, toss.

Moving on to better things in life

People do do that. People ought to do that. Nothin wrong with doing that. When you think it is the right thing to do. Don't worry about how others are trying to make you feel and don't worry about what others have said to you.
It is our essential right to move on to better things in life. If you have an oppoturnity to make a better life for you and your family, do so! Take a leap of faith! Be selfish for yourself and your family! =)

Journey/ missing Chicago/ Journey

Some people are fortunate to have a lot of those.  Some people are less fortunate to have none of those.  What about some people that are fortunate to have some of those but less fortunate to have enough of those?  

Yes, I am totally in the third category.  I don't mind telling you how much I miss doing road trips.  Esp it is now in the midst of summer time.  Early July when the day turns dark much much later...  It was fourth of July two days ago here in Malaysia.  OBVIOUSLY we don't celebrate it here.  I felt a little sense of lost.  I don't see red white and blue, I don't see backyard BBQ, I don't see fireworks going off.  I felt a little sense of lost.  K fine, I am no American.  But I did and have celebrated this occasion for the past how many years...  

Ooopss a little off there.  K back to journeys. I feel STUCK.  Stuck with responsibilities.  I was just telling my mama the other day.  How long more do I have to save up for me to make a run to Chicago again?  She said one day you will.  I said ok, provided if I don't get married and don't have kids.  Coz these two things cost A LOT of money in life.  Am I right or am I right? Anywho, I still feel stuck.  Stuck with responsibilities and duties.  I am working because I want to make a life and at the same time making other people's lives easier.  

Journey, I keep believing that one day journey and I shall meet again.  Taking journeys with your best friends, taking journeys with the one you love "in the hopes" of growing together.  Yup, just hopin!  lol  Taking journeys alone, I mean A-LONE like Eat, Pray, Love. 

Well as of NOW, I ain't got time/money for journey and journey ain't got time for me.  That's just how life goes, ya know.

OH, I bet some of you might have this thought flashing through your mind: THIS BITCH BE COMPLAININ TOO MUCH.  Hell yes I am complaining.  I haven't get to do journeys in a long time.  I forgot what journey smells like, I forgot what journey feels like.  UGGHHHHH.  I feel stuck.  

Recently, received a package from Chicago.  Inside, they are all my winter coats.  These babies walked me through so many cold cold winter days and nights.  These babies reminds me how desperately missing Chicago am I.  These babies made me cry.  Yes winter in Chicago is no joke but I do miss the freezin cold wind blasting right at your face and eating ice cream outdoor during winter nights.  I also miss playing out in the snow, sticking your tongue out waiting for the snowflakes to fall on your tongue.  Silly but FUN!  Oh let's not forget about the car-got-stuck-in-pile-of-snow-that's-in-other-people's-drive-way scenario.  I sat in the car for one hour before I could gather up my courage to wake this lady up for help.  LOL.  Nuts, I should have save this story for winter time.  =P

Doesn't this post feels like a little spring shower during hot summer nights?  Yea coz the last post I wrote was in early June?  Hope you've enjoyed my lil rant.

PEACE