99 balloons...

Received an email from Erin yesterday saying I should check out this video.


I've watched it several times. My conclusion is. I am thankful to have more than 99 balloons...

If you haven't already seen it. Please spend a tiny fraction of your life to watch this video. =)

Much needed

Have you ever wonder why am I not living the life that I wanted that I dreamed of?  I have.  

But I have since tried changing the way I look at life.  Instead of trying to reach some imaginative places...  I simply cherish the life I'm living in NOW.  I've probably said something along the line in my previous entry.  It is not until lately I am able to do so.  

Like this evening, got off work around 730pm.  My coworkers and I walked over to Pavilion to have a dinner and talk about something outside work.  To me, that was blissful already.  I am grateful for an evening without rain, I am grateful for a walking distance hip hang out place.  I am grateful to have coworkers that I can hang out with outside of work.  Life is that much easier when we learn how to appreciate little things that surround us every single day.  

Yes, I might not have the funds to travel and to see the world.  

Yes, I might not have extra money to buy big ass LV bag.  ;)

Yes, I might not have the funds to get dolled up like the Palins (oops).  

But, 

I have a little camera that I bring everywhere to immortalize special moments with special people. 

I have a trusty old car that brings me where I am needed.  

I have a pair of healthy eyes allowing me to read A New Earth, to see, and also to blog for you.

Most importantly, 

I have a home.  

Hey now, of course I will have my moments...  But those moments do not come as often anymore.  I didn't say learning too see things differently and learning to let go is a quick process.  It takes time just like anything else in this world.  

All and all, I feel renewed.  

   

5:37 minutes from the other side of the world...

The sweetest, most nerve calming, 5 minutes 37 seconds phone call came when I was watching CSI: Miami.  I have no problem leaving my tv set when I saw caller ID shows "unknown".  I knew right away, it was him.  Yes even though it lasted only 5 minutes 37 seconds.  It was enough for me to tell him how much I miss him and that he should hop on the next flight to come back to KL.  ^^  He couldn't stop laughing with his signature laughter!

Me: How are you?  Tell me tell me!

Him:  I'm pretty cool but could be better.

Me:  Cool like weather cool or you're really cool?

Him:  I'm cool.  But could be better.

Me:  What can make you better baby?

Him:  You coming here.

Me: LOL LOL LOL

Him: LOL LOL LOL    

For some reason, I knew he was gon call me today.  That's why I had my phone glued to my hips all day... even at work.  He said he'll call later...  Because he was in a restaurant and I couldn't hear him well.  I was so happy to hear his voice, almost dissolved into tears again.  I cried when I was reading his email too... gosh...  So freakin PMS-ing!!!  I said to him baby, I'm very happy to hear from you but I can't really hear you.  LOL.

Well y'all I just wanna share how this 5:37 minutes made all my worries disappeared into thin air...  Right now, I want to fight this cold & flu bug!!!!!  Been suppressing it for two weeks, and now it's attacking me.  Sigh.  Late night sessions will totally ruined any immunity against bugs you have.  So ppl, get early rest.  ok?

Listening to come with me by SHAI.  I wanna dedicate this song to the guy that I really like.  =)    

People come people go...

Same goes to anything

Bit of a "earthquake" happened where I worked.  yea.  

Some people saw better opportunities elsewhere and had left...  

Some remained might be a bit upset.  

I say, why not?    

It is a real world after all...

Why hold on to loyalty?

When it doesn't put a roof over your head...

I say go!  Go for it!

Me I don't have any hard feelings.  

I could give a shit-less about what's been going on.

Just want my paycheck same time every month.

If I could get a big-ger check, 

I'll leave in a heart beat. too.  

Our world is way to real for us to be loyal.

Take that!

Ngeh, I ain't mad.  

Got more in mind now.

Wanna be the best in what I do.  For real.

World class services.  always.  ;)

Don't know where the inspiration came from...

Was it babe?  

Was it that future big-ger paycheck?

Like I said, people come people go.

Same goes to everything...

Just came across a great quote

“Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines, sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.” - Mark Twain

NOW, you have NO excuses for not doing what your heart desires.

Gone

Gone.  Until whenever it may be.  

He's the only guy who made me walked in the rain

He's cried

He's stuffed cash* in a Mentos case

and tried giving em to me, knowing I don't do gums.  

He's bought me calling card,

reminding me to use landline to call coz it's free.  

We've said numerous goodbyes

I've heard the pilot's announcement

We've talked about it

I've kissed his forehead goodbye

We've stayed on the phone until he really had to go

He's asked me will I be fine

I've answered it will never be fine but it will find its way to be okay...

For cryin out loud, I'm effin lost right now.  

Since when did it happen?  

and why did it happen?

*To buy me a jacket we saw few days back ;)

An email to my buddies Erin and Rina

You guys (My loves)!

I am totally back. With no more activities related to my nice long break! Last Tuesday, we had a half day at work. Got off work around 4pm, arrived home feeling relieved and stoked. Called up my old friends to see what they up to. We ended up hanging out for dinner, supper and tea. Plain talking! Wednesday, went to the mall, watched a movie (could you believe I finally actually have time for one real theater kine movie?), had Italian for lunch (yum!), hang out some more. By this point, I've probably gained two pounds coz I let myself eat with no restrictions. Heheheh. It's my break so let it be a real break baby!!!!  

Thursday came, we packed up with my cousin and headed up to Selesa Hillhomes, it's like a hill-y place with fresh cool air, relaxation yo. =) Relax is the key word there. Friday, we drove up to a higher altitude mountain. The place is one of our tourists attraction with ONE and ONLY ONE legalized casino in Malaysia. We didn't gamble, we just played at the arcade. Hahahaha. After that, we had a really BIG HUGE buffet lunch. Good food I tell ya. By the way, I haven't felt this burden-free and happy in a long ass time.  

We left Selesa Saturday morning after breakfast. =) Me and my friends had plan for clubbin that night yea? My mother put up the biggest fight EVER! I went out anyways. They picked my up around 830pm for dinner first and then change and make up at Jinn Lin's house. They brought me to this one club named Poppy Room. It was fucking crowded and hot. BUT it made me wanna cry. I was like how can I not know about this place til now? It's huge inside k, some a/ced rooms, some are open air (the smoke factor went down drastically). They played good music, our kine. I didn't bother with the mixed drinks and went straight to vodka shots. Three shots in a roll baby, we got so hot after. We started dancing and I had a great great time you guys. After dancing at one spot, I was like we need to switch places. That club was crowded but we managed to find a nice spot where we could check out guys. To me, I don't see nobody coz they all asians and stuff. It really didn't bother me all that much coz I just wanna DANCE! After about 2 songs, this guy came up from the back. He was like do you wanna dance? I said sure. Lo and behold, he is black. LOL LOL LOL! What a coincidence ya? (I know he'd been checking me out since I got to the spot, I just didn't wanna make a move) He's totally NOT my type coz he SKINNY. I was like what the heck I'll give it a shot, not gon be all picky for a dance buddy. He made me so happy. He doesn't smell like alcohol nor a chimney. He's slightly taller STILL effin SKINNY. After some bumpin and grindin, I suggested we head out for some air. ^^ Ya know what? As I was "freakin" him, I saw some girls be staring at me. LOL. I know I'm HUGE but that don't mean I can't freak. LOL.

Anyways, we left the club found a little cafe sat down and started talking. He is funny!!!! Haven't been able to talk to a guy with the intention of just talking. We talked for an hour and I really had to leave, coz I promise my ma I'd be home before 3am. I know IT SUCKS. He said to me, do you really have to leave now, he was trying to negotiate. LOL I told him, you have no chips to negotiate with me. And so my night ended. Before I left I told him I was gonna see him on Sunday. My friends were teasing me, asking me how did I "get" a man just like that? LOL Keep in mind, that was our FIRST time ever clubbing together.  

Today, woke up as usual. Went grocery shopping with my ma and sis. He texted me around 1130am asking me if I can come through. I told him no coz I just wanna spend time with my sister ya. And we did the texting thing for a bit. I took a nap til about 330pm. He called me up around 4pm, we talked for two hours straight... One long ass conversation. The first half, he was giving me shit about not keeping my promise. LOL. Then we just talking and flirting and stuff. It was overall good. =) I promised (again) I'll see him tomorrow after work. Can't wait! I want to do grown up stuffs! I want to have intelligent conversations. I want to date. I want to make more friends and I think he's gon be a good one ^^. I mean isn't cool, meeting someone who's been to places? Anywho, check out myspace or fb for new photos. Erin, especially you! =)

A bit of details:
He's from England, temporary living in Korea for a project.
He's a software computer dude.
He's FUNNY!!!!
He'll only be here for a week or two.
Errbody called him Rammy or Ram, I didn't catch his full name. 

I think he's smart. ^^


LOVE YOU BOTH. very much.


yash