Hung up

Today

I hung up on my client

Today

Magora hung up before I could say goodbye to him, after he's told me he's flying back to England as of right now (8:38pm).  I blame his phone line.  Hahaha.

Right now, I can smell one of the greatness aromas in the entire universe.  Coffee.

Yet, I ordered myself a Camomile Tea.  As a compensation, I got a lil sugar donut treat. Ha.

Can I tell you why I hung up on my client?

She was being very rude and impossible and RIDICULOUSLY unreasonable.  I can't get through her and no one could help me to get her to understand the situation.  Why?  She speaks only Mandarin (basically I'm stuck with her whenever she calls).  Bleh.  I knew who she was but she wouldn't admit she's that person.  One minute, she's Mdm XYZ's employee; next, she's Mdm XYZ's customer??!!  I asked her who's on the line, I said I needed a name for record.  She wouldn't budge!!!  She kept repeating "you can't do that".  I was on the phone with her for 10 minutes AND I have a client sitting in front of me waiting for me to do what I was suppose to.  SHIT.  I couldn't bear it any longer and so I HUNG UP on her!!!!  I know I was wrong.  Being a customer service, no matter how angry I am, I can't ignore my client.  Sigh.  What's done is done.  As the matter of fact, I really don't wanna deal with this crazy lady who doesn't even speak to her OWN son.  Vice versa.  Man oh man.  I don't know how she gon react to my rude behavior...  If my boss fires me because of that, SO BE IT.  He could deal with this shit himself.

Whatever you do, if can.  Do not do what I do for a living.  

Magora~

Got a feeling that he's leaving Norway in a hurry.  I hope everything is ok with him.  Said he will call again when he gets back in England.  

Thank goodness it's the weekend again.  One hundred percent-ly grateful for it.  I'm trying to unwind before heading home and also update y'all on somethings.  ;)  If you're reading this, I thank you for still visiting my blog to see me rant and bitch.  

Peace.

 

Two Wrongs/ Thanksgiving

For some reasons I thought of this song which I started listening from years ago...  Hence, I'm listening to it now on repeat.  

Today I discovered a brand new feeling, while reading an email.  I don't think I've ever felt that someone actually know me the way this person does.  He knows what I think, how I feel about certain situations when he wasn't even present to see how things went down.  I was in awe reading through his words.  My heart was warmed coz it is all new to me.  At the same time I thought how could this person?  Actually know me.  

Now, I've switched to Anniversary by Tony Toni Tone.

This same person called me this afternoon, I was talking to my client.

This same person called me this evening, this time around, I couldn't wait another ring to answer his call.  Thank goodness the line is perfect!  Thank goodness clients weren't in my face!  =)  Let see, our phone call lasted 24:15 minutes.  He was telling me his plans for getting a master.  He was telling me how last night they had a scare on the oil rig thinking someone had fall off the platform.  I just listen.  Because the line was crystal clear.  My mind's kinda stuck right now to recall what he's said...  hahaha.  All and all, we had a great conversation.  And I miss him.

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It is Thanksgiving already, Malaysia's time.  Though we do not celebrate it.  BUT.

I want y'all to share with me what are you thankful for right this moment or this year so far?

I am thankful~

~for the decision I made 16 months ago.

~for the people who had travelled from my past into my present, with me.  Though journey wasn't necessarily easy.  

~for the people who chose to stay in my past.

~because I have a good home.

~for R. Magora

~being able to spend time with my sister.

~because I have met some really awesome people this year.  Hanafi, Zaidi, Gary, Val, and Rammy.  

~for people who chose to love me til this day.

~for a healthy me.  

~for Paul.  

~because my current job made me grow as a person.

~because my love for chocolate still hasn't change.  

~for my ever growing playlist on my ipod.

~for Jinn Lin.

~because I get to travel to Gold Coast and Brisbane for my brother's graduation.

~for still having a sense of humor.

~for having papa and mama, alive.

~for having di and mei.

~because Erin finally has her special someone ;)

~because Kimmy came down to visit.

~for Gmail, Facebook and Myspace.

Huh, this list could go on and on and on.  I really want y'all to think about what you're grateful for.  Thanksgiving is more than turkey, sweet potatoes pie, stuffings, cranberries sauce and finally passing out on the couch watching tv.  Thanksgiving let us not forgetting to be thankful, hmm, at least one day outta 365 days...  =)

Happy Thanksgiving 2008!!!!!

  

learnin how to look at the big picture

... makes life an easier place to be.  We had an event past weekend.  Shitty things do and did happen.  Good things happened too!  I was in charge of the rooming list and registration.  I made name tags for folks.  Some ppl saw the left over tags on the desk and said wow so many ppl did not show up.  I said to them, how bout look at those who showed up and are in the ballroom right now.  We all tend to fell into the trap where we focused more on the negative things...  I mean three hundred plus ppl showed compared to the twenty ppl who didn't.  

Ain't gone lie.  I was very very upset for a while when I got yelled at for no apparent reason by someone STUPID and IGNORANT singaporeans.  I can take it when other ppl yell at me, but NOT singaporeans I tell ya.  If you don't like how things are done here in Malaysia, you can take your asses way back to your little stinky ass island.  Yea, to remind you, you are just an island, always gon be an island.  

I've also realized something over the weekend.  I am grateful for a boss like mine.  Always expecting for nothing less than best.  He made me want to strive for more, strive for the best!  In turn helping me to be the best in what I'm doing.  =)  Thank you boss.

Past weekend was hell for the most of us.  Nonetheless it was a successful event!  Icing on top of my cake was getting to meet so many awesome ppl AND to work with my peeps!  We had fun no matter what we're doing, we had fun even during the worst time you could imagine.  =D  Thank you so so so much guys.  Love you!

Back to my point, let's try to look at the big picture.  It does add happiness to our lives.  I promise.  Practice everyday.  ;)

p.s.  but when it comes to s'poreans you best bet I will throw that big picture outta my window!

Eh

Have you ever drove out of the city, looking at your rear view mirror and saw KL Twin Towers getting smaller?  It is one of the best feelings. 

Anyways, been crazily busy.  Couldn't blog.  Wanted to tho.  By time when I get home, I'm too tired trying to remember what I was gon say.  Just like right now.

Holla if anything. 

Peace.  

Untitled

Let the past be where it's suppose to be.

I think that'll allow me to trust.

To believe in better things.

But how do you know when to believe?

But how do you know how to believe?

And how do you know who to believe?

We carried our pasts with us.  To remind, to serve as a lesson.

But that same pasts sometimes hinder us.  

So do we believe?  Do we love?

Speaking of love.

There is no true love.  Hardly true love.

Most ppl love.

But they only love the idea of love.

And they only love the created image of the other person.

They only love the idea of belonging to somewhere, someone.

I think it is true to a certain extant.   

Thinking back on who I've loved. 

I loved the persons I created in my mind.

Do I know who they are?  I can't answer you.

Why do we get disappointed at ppl?  

Because we've created an image of how that person is suppose to be.

When that person didn't live up to the image, we get upset.

Image, might not be the correct choice of word here.  

I have more to digest.  I am flustered.

I probably can't sleep tonight.

Wanna know why?

Ask.  

Another page on my calendar

I flipped another page of the calendar, November is exposed. I suppose that means another month has passed. I only have two pages left since I first bought it. I suppose that means this year is almost over... Is this how most people remind they selves how time passes?
November is much anticipated. Got so much planned for work. I got one word, YUCK. LOL. Seriously, late nights aside, we're gonna have an influx of TMs in da office. More ppl means what???? More ppl means more trouble coz we all know that human beings are problematic. Let alone human beings who are money hungry!!!!! Grrrrr.. =D Oh yea, I'm smiling, Imma smile through the whole ordeal. If you can't hide can't fight, you be, one, with it.  

Someone called me at 11:39pm last night, I was too lazy to answer. Someone called me at 6:00am this morning, I answered because I knew it was him. He is far away, he also sounded far away. I blame the phone line. I couldn't hear one complete sentence, I was half asleep still. As if he's talking under water, as if he's talking in the chicago wind... But babe, thank you so much for having me in mind and thank you so much for calling. I enjoy your emails. I enjoy the surprise calls you gave me. ;)

So many random thoughts are running through my mind. I ought to tell you this story from the book A New Earth (Eckhar Tolle). 'member I was saying learning how to let go? Here it goes:

Two Zen monks, Tanzan and Ekido, who were walking along a country road that had become extremely muddy after heavy rains. Near a village, they came upon a young woman who was trying to cross the road, but the mud was so deep it would have ruined the silk kimono she was wearing. Tanzan at once picked her up and carried her to the other side. The monks walked on in silence. Five hours later, as they were approaching the lodging temple, Ekido couldn't restrain himself any longer. "Why did you carry that girl across the road?" he asked. "We monks are not supposed to do things like that." "I put the girl down house ago," said Tanzan. "Are you still carrying her?"

Think this through, don't we often trapped ourselves doing what Ekido did?  Don't we often burdened ourselves doing what Ekido did?  I DID.  

After reading this story, I couldn't stop smiling.  In the coming days, I shall be less like Ekido!

Yo, hold up.  You might be wondering why this chick has been mentioning A New Earth more than she should be?  Well you guys, I am not trying to be no saint.  Just wanna be less angry*, more patient.  Since I've got this awesome book that actually helps.  You bet I'll hang on to it and sometimes like to share it with you.  It'd be best to pick it up from your nearest book store baby!  Hahahah.         

*I'm one angry person.