If I die today, I would have no regrets

I had a thought the other day... If I die today, I would have no regrets

I have the best family anyone alive could ask for

My papa and mama provided me with everything and more

Roof above my head, sturdy four walls, heart warming meals (every single day), ermm... and a hot ride

I have the best mentor, they are my guardian angels

I have the bestest friends, whom will hold my feet when I drown like how Cristina did for Meredith

I live in the best neighborhood, again big thanks to papa and mama

I am very comfortable in my own skin

I love who I am, I am content

I love that I love me more and more each day

I am happy everyday... What more could I ask for?

Leave it and come back later

I found this is especially useful when I'm stuck at somethings. Rather than sitting there scratching my head and feeling miserable & stupid, I would stand up and walk away. Come back later (reasonable amount of time, of course) to solve the scalp scratching problem. :)

I do this for when I'm playing jig saw puzzles as well. Viewing the puzzle from a different angle and height make a big difference!

Long Lonely Journey

I said it the other day

"Certain paths in our lives are meant to be walked alone".

I am okay with walking alone.

No one would understand what I go through sometimes, even if they tried to hear me out. Most of the times, they aren't paid to listen to my problems. Nor are they paid to help me solve my problems. So I get it now, the path to the top could be very lonely. Unless I have a great mentor, which lucky for me, I think I do. :) Yet I can't rely on my mentor all the time, I could only go to that person when I absolutely need it.

On the brighter side of this note is, I will get better in what I do. There is only one way, UP.

I saw a quote from Jamie today, "breakdowns are prequels to breakthroughs", after what happened today, I am a firm believer of this quote.

These Three Words

Its an open love letter to you, my love.


The night I met you for the first time
It feels like a dream sometime
This dream tho it is so real
Each and every senses of mine is oh so fulfilled

The evening I met you for the second time
It feels less like a dream
It felt more like
Finally get to see you after a decade of hoping and wishing

Whenever you speak you
Chose your words wisely
That's only one of the many qualities I love about you

Whenever you lay your hands on my warm skin
I feel like my world can only get better from here
That's definitely only one of the many things you do for me that I love

I may never love again
Like how I love you
May it be in Chi town or in paradise
I love you the same

The minutes and the seconds I got to spend with you
I cherish
I revisit
I yearn to relive

But over the years
I have learned a great deal about letting go
I have learned a great deal about loving you a different way
Oh I don't want to let go
Oh I want to keep learnin'

Like I always say...
Life as such

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I named it "These Three Words" is because it is the song that was playing in the background when I heard the most moving and encouraging voice message that inspired this letter.

Fixation

By getting rid of my online games, I am in a big away, getting rid of my fixation as well. These fixation are hindering me from dealing with the real problems. It was so easy to migrate my mind and my focus onto games, as soon as my mind detects the presence of an issue.

My dad once asked me, what is the reason behind spending time on online games. I told my dad without a shadow of a doubt that, it is for relaxation. My dad did not pursue further.

But really? For relaxation and de-stress? A big fat lie I told myself. It takes more courage to face the real world with real issues than picking vegetables from virtual farm plots.

I am not against those games. Just that I have to stop, for me. Because it has gotten to a point where I almost arrange my day around those stupid games. lol. Until I told myself to snap out of it! I am in charge of my life, not the games.

*This is a picture of my sister and my brother. They make me happy, I am grateful for them being in my life! =D

Say goodbye to Cityville.

What would we be without goals, big or small. Goals, beside being goals, could also be like milestones for some of us.

I am into facebook online games, like Restaurant City and Cityville, and Empire Avenue (you get to buy and sell your friends). These games, in order to pull you in and make you keep playing them, they keep giving you missions and goals to accomplish. You could really get sucked into these games... :) I am one of them. But few days ago, I started feeling tired of it, what is the purpose of me fulfilling these "virtual" goals when I can make and achieve real goals in real life?! So I have decided to quit playing.

Without goals in life, we would be living our lives blindly and just living through motions... And one day we realized we are about to leave this earth and we hadn't done anything meaningful or at least meaningful in our own terms.

I know what I wanted to express is more than these few words here but I don't have the vocab to elaborate 'em further. It is how I feel at that moment, that is still so profound to me.