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Lotus Seed Paste Mooncake

Since Mooncake (Mid Autumn) Festival is just around the corner and my mother and I have made some few days ago. I thought why don't I go online to search for mooncake recipes to see what is out there. My first stop is, of course, www.foodnetwork.com, I found nothing and they even asked me was I looking for corncake recipe. LOL. So then I googled mooncake recipes, honestly not many good results out there. The closest match was probably the recipe from Star Online, a Malaysian newspaper. Besides that, a lot of the search results were "where do I find mooncake recipes?" sorta things. And one crazy ones that says 'easy chinese moon cake', for ppl like me who just made some KNOW for sure there is nothing easy about making it! In that recipe, it even called for strawberry jam??!! I was like WTF?

Anywho, I am pretty damn proud that I have participated in the making of mooncakes! The preparation is tedious and you gotta start preparing at least one month before you get to make anything outta lotus seeds, flour, oil, sugar and etc! I can't disclose too much about it here though ;) Just in case you're curious, the recipe is from my maternal grandmother. My mother is the main person making mooncakes and me the sous chef. Hehehe.

I just wanna say, the mooncakes we make taste nothing like what you are getting where you shopped for grocery not even high end restaurants or classy five star hotels can beat us! Well unless you got homemade mooncakes that uses ONLY ONE HUNDRED PERCENT lotus seed paste, strictly NO FILLERS!!!! I will have some pictures posted up here soon. So stay tuned ;)

I love Kimora Lee

I love Kimora Lee Simmons, I'm not too sure when she's gonna change her last name. Hehehe. Yea, she just had a new baby with her boyfriend Djimon Hounsou.

I love her because she's crazy and loud and of course, she's freakin fabulous. She embraces for who she is, she definitely ain't shy bout being loaded!

I love that she's a mother, I love that she loves dark chocolate, just like I do. ;)

I love that she's half black half asian, I love that she has a damn cool mother allowing her to be with some much older men. LOL.

Not that I've met her in person or anything. Not that I wore a Baby Phat labeled clothing ever. Kimora simply rocks! She's as real as you can get.

Enough with the I love Kimora talk.

Uh huh, I know I haven't been updating my blog as often as I should. Just coz I ain't got nothing new to talk about. Like right now, even if I have some ideas I can't bring myself to sit down long enough to actually write. =)

If you're one of the few ppl who is still reading my blog once in a while. I thank you =D Maybe you could give me some ideas as to what you wanna know?

PEACE.

p.s. I am still dutifully drinking my coffee everyday. Once a day, or twice if I'm being really horrible with self control.

Amazing

The thought "amazing" came to me when I saw a friend of mine commented on my status on FB.  I was sayin I just realized tomorrow (8/4) will make two good years since I moved back to Malaysia and he said "two years back I am looking for being here for 20..."  You're thinking no biggy right?  Yes, no biggy if you're a Malaysian who has live here all your life.  But biggy if you are from Austria.  ;)  So yea, that's why I thought Amazing!

Do you watch Grey's Anatomy?  Have you seen season 3?  Sometime around season 3 when Meredith "drown" and almost didn't make it?  When she came through it and Christina was holding Mer's feet and couldn't utter a word?  

I cried.  Because I thought if I were Meredith, who would be the Christina holding me feet when I almost died?  

I cried.  Because I am afraid.  Maybe I didn't have such bond with anyone I know. *in this case, family doesn't count*  

I cried.  Because I know deep down maybe I don't have anyone like Christina in my life, well not anymore.

I cried...

Just realized something else.  I like to write on this blog at the same time I would reply emails and messages.  In case you're curious, right now I'm replying a message on FB from my professor.  I guess it'd be the only time my mind is set into writing, may it be any form of writing...  

Today I did one thing that make myself proud.  I was being really really polite and patient with a client and everybody knows how nasty she could be.  ^^  I am so proud.  lol.  I sat with her for 3 hours...  THREE HOURS.  I sat with a nasty lady for 3 hours of my life.  I almost couldn't believe it. LOL.   

In case you've forgotten, tomorrow will make two good years since I moved home.  A baby born two years ago would've become a toddler tomorrow.  I do miss the other me, I do miss the other world I lived in.  

All and all, it is pretty amazing.

Just wateva

How many times do you have to reach a breaking point to actually break?  And if you didn't break after that point it wouldn't be considered as breaking point would it?  

I just realized sometimes we cannot fit someone or somethings in our fantasy into our real world.  Sometimes, what we found in our fantasies is better off remain in our fantasies.  After having to realize that, I am more at ease with myself and everything else.  

If you just assume everyone is horrible from get go then you wouldn't be disappointed further.  Seriously, no one is an angel in this world.  Someone is always doing something (good or bad) to benefit themselves, nothin wrong with that coz we're oh-so human beings.

Well if you are too nice to assume everyone is horrible, there is another way you could do.  Set your expectations REAL LOW.  Ha.

I have a good 5 days off and I don't know what to do with it, yet.  I'm thinking somewhere with blue ocean and white sand.  Who wants to go chill with me???  August 12th-16th.

My hair is real frizzy and wavy.  Should I do something about it?  OR let it be and have every other person who sees me tells me I like a lion?  Hmmm

I am more of a patience person now.  

While I am helping everyone else's dream come true, am I also making mine come true?  A blue bird outside of my window tells me he heard not.  

Currently reading The Secret Life of Bees.  uggh...  I'm looking at my hair again.

Where is my passion?

Been thinking about this since forever...  Gotta sit down and plan.  NOT wedding. 

I got stories to tell but ain't in any kind of mood to tell them.

Cycles

I go through em like a dutifully hamster.  Never asking why.  Can't remember if I've told about me quitting caffeine.  It worked before when I was living a less stressful life.  It is not quite working now coz I need caffeine to get me through the day, my day.  Ermm...  my cycles go like this:

1.  Waking up late in the ams, mentally preparing myself for a caffeine-less day.

2.  Doing rather well up until around 1 in the pms.  Sometimes I can't even get pass 12noon.

3.  Feeling like a walking zombie.

4.  Struggling like a mad woman inside of my brain debating if I should have that cuppa damn coffee.

5.  Giving up.

6.  Feeling wired up after the feeding of my addiction.

7.  Crashing down around 7-8pm.

8.  Swearing to myself that I wouldn't have coffee again because I'd toss and turn at night OR still up blogging at 1234am.  Also, going to bed late means getting up late. MEANS, I'll miss my exercising session.

9.  Repeat from 1-8.

I know I know it is all in the head.  Sigh.  

p.s.  Was totally distracted for about 30mins talking on the phone with effa.  It is her burfday today so a shout out goes to you my love!    

Milo and MSN

People drink coffee and tea amongst some other drinkable drinks.  But us Malaysians love Milo.  When I saw that 1.5kg bag of Milo sitting in our pantry at the office...  I realized we love Milo, coz it's comforting.  We had it when we were little kids.  A scoop of powdered milk, two scoops of Milo, add hot water and it was heavenly.  Then we get older, we'll go out to mamak and we order Milo-ice (powdered milk has been replaced by sweetened condensed milk).  Until now, I still love having Milo anytime of the day...  But I no longer add in sweetened condensed milk nor powdered milk.  Well, occasionally we add Nescafe to our Milo to create what ppl call Nes-lo... Cool eh?  

Realized one thing that hasn't changed throughout our years?

Eli (my Mexican friend) could not stand the fact that I could drink Milo day and night, rain or shine.  Coz to her chocolate-y drinks are only for kids and special occasions and beer is definitely a better beverage!  LOL.  

Changes changes, we love it we're also afraid of it.  

About 6 or 7 years ago, I'd stay in touch with friends using MSN.  Soon as I log onto MSN after getting back from classes, I'll see many many little green/blue man on my contact list.  And usually I will chat with most of them, if not all, some even live just down the hall.  These past three years I haven't log onto MSN as often as I used to.  I guess my mode of communication has altered, so is others.  Or as we grew older, we learned that a lot of ppl whom we called friends are no longer our friends.  Or as adults, we are more selective as to who we called friends.  =)  Whatever reasons we believe in, the truth is, there are just not many green/blue little man showin up on our contact list anymore...  Seriously, it is kinda depressing coz it is getting to a point where I am okay with not having a lot of friends.  I will always be grateful for the friends who have walked with me through certain paths of my life.  The friends who chose to walk a different path, I'm fine with it too.  No longer feeling that sense of lost that I speak of often, in my previous blog entries.      

Cheers to Milo, a good farewell to MSN!

p.s.  Milo is like hot cocoa and then some.  ;)