Cycles

I go through em like a dutifully hamster.  Never asking why.  Can't remember if I've told about me quitting caffeine.  It worked before when I was living a less stressful life.  It is not quite working now coz I need caffeine to get me through the day, my day.  Ermm...  my cycles go like this:

1.  Waking up late in the ams, mentally preparing myself for a caffeine-less day.

2.  Doing rather well up until around 1 in the pms.  Sometimes I can't even get pass 12noon.

3.  Feeling like a walking zombie.

4.  Struggling like a mad woman inside of my brain debating if I should have that cuppa damn coffee.

5.  Giving up.

6.  Feeling wired up after the feeding of my addiction.

7.  Crashing down around 7-8pm.

8.  Swearing to myself that I wouldn't have coffee again because I'd toss and turn at night OR still up blogging at 1234am.  Also, going to bed late means getting up late. MEANS, I'll miss my exercising session.

9.  Repeat from 1-8.

I know I know it is all in the head.  Sigh.  

p.s.  Was totally distracted for about 30mins talking on the phone with effa.  It is her burfday today so a shout out goes to you my love!    

Milo and MSN

People drink coffee and tea amongst some other drinkable drinks.  But us Malaysians love Milo.  When I saw that 1.5kg bag of Milo sitting in our pantry at the office...  I realized we love Milo, coz it's comforting.  We had it when we were little kids.  A scoop of powdered milk, two scoops of Milo, add hot water and it was heavenly.  Then we get older, we'll go out to mamak and we order Milo-ice (powdered milk has been replaced by sweetened condensed milk).  Until now, I still love having Milo anytime of the day...  But I no longer add in sweetened condensed milk nor powdered milk.  Well, occasionally we add Nescafe to our Milo to create what ppl call Nes-lo... Cool eh?  

Realized one thing that hasn't changed throughout our years?

Eli (my Mexican friend) could not stand the fact that I could drink Milo day and night, rain or shine.  Coz to her chocolate-y drinks are only for kids and special occasions and beer is definitely a better beverage!  LOL.  

Changes changes, we love it we're also afraid of it.  

About 6 or 7 years ago, I'd stay in touch with friends using MSN.  Soon as I log onto MSN after getting back from classes, I'll see many many little green/blue man on my contact list.  And usually I will chat with most of them, if not all, some even live just down the hall.  These past three years I haven't log onto MSN as often as I used to.  I guess my mode of communication has altered, so is others.  Or as we grew older, we learned that a lot of ppl whom we called friends are no longer our friends.  Or as adults, we are more selective as to who we called friends.  =)  Whatever reasons we believe in, the truth is, there are just not many green/blue little man showin up on our contact list anymore...  Seriously, it is kinda depressing coz it is getting to a point where I am okay with not having a lot of friends.  I will always be grateful for the friends who have walked with me through certain paths of my life.  The friends who chose to walk a different path, I'm fine with it too.  No longer feeling that sense of lost that I speak of often, in my previous blog entries.      

Cheers to Milo, a good farewell to MSN!

p.s.  Milo is like hot cocoa and then some.  ;)