Catching up but still pissy...

Hey.  It is the time of the week again, to be pissy and mad.  Oh yea, I was that just about two days ago right?  Uh huh, I didn't forget.  =)  I am at it again though.  

I am pissed off at first because I am not doing what I went to school for.  Then, I began to pissed off about I am pissed off because of the previous reasons.  A little later, I was pissed off about I'm always pissy about something.  Also, I was pissed off about why I am not doing anything about things that made me pissy.  Woooooooo!  What a mouth full!  Sometimes I would think, why can't I just be more grateful?  I do have a job.  I have income.  Gosh, such deja vu right now.  Didn't I just blogged about this shit?  

People said, if you're not gonna make any changes then stop complainin.  

Let me tell you what happened yesterday at work.  I have a few clients came in to do their monthly things...  To make it short, a lady asked for my birth date.  I gave.  She punched it into her cell phone, after a while she started tellin me things.  

Things.  Like, I appeared to be close to my parents, which I'm really not.  She repeated it like four times.  I nodded, more than once.     

Things.  Like, it is very hard for me to make any kind of decisions.  I nodded.  

Things.  Like, to be careful at work, coz there are tons of "xiao ren" meaning negative ppl doing things behind my back.  I tilted my head a little... 

Things.  Like, I'm lucky to have Yasha* as my name.  To sort of counteract the negativity my birth date generates.

I believed and agreed what she had said.  She even told me, she's went to I-Ching classes that study the elements of life.  You might think this is just superstitious.  But, I believe.  And that's all that matters...

*Though Yasha is only my nickname, she said, but that's what most ppl use.  You cannot change your birth year and date but you can change what you'll use for the rest of your life.  For example, cell phone numbers, nickname and such.  Like herself, she was harsh, so she changed her English name to become more approachable and like-able!  How cool is that?  

Listening to Trade In My Life, Step In The Name Of Love... and I Decided by R. Kelly.

Babe is......  

Like I said before it's gon be a long and difficult journey.  

You are a caring and loving man babe...  

You are very sensitive, you said you can feel it on your skin sometimes....

That I'm not like before.  That I am different.

I agree...  

I'm trying.  To see it in a different light, even if it's a dim one....