I had a point. I did.

I had a point, last night.  Thoughts flashing through my mind when I was half asleep.  I knew exactly what to say in this blog.

But now, I lost it all.  All I hear is the new thoughts in my head.  All I hear is the new songs on my playlist.  What prompted all these thoughts in my mind?  

This morning I got to work, I saw this look my coworker's face.  I asked, what's wrong?  He said today is the worst day of my life...  I asked, what happened?  He told me everything.  As he was telling me why...  all the old creepy feelings just came back to me.  It's non other than relationships challenges.  It gives me goose bumps.  I said to him no matter how many times we've been a relationship, no matter how many times we encounter heart breaks, the feeling will always be the same.  

Your heart is at the bottom of the Bermuda Triangle, no where to be found.  Your mind is occupied by so so many what ifs, what if he'd never done so, what if I'd never said that.  Your can't smile even if Russell Peters was on tv, you feel as if winter is never gonna turn into spring...  

Sometimes you'll ask yourself.  Dude, what the hell have I done to deserve this?  Yea, until this day.  I don't have an answer for that.  

Was talking to an old friend last night.  He brought me back down memory lane.  How we met was the funniest thing.  We still talk about it.  We still remember exactly how it happened.  lol.  It's a good laugh for the both of us.  You probably wouldn't believe we've only met twice since 2004.  No one remember how we became such close friends.  Ah~ I lied.  I still remember how I would call him up during the cold days in Chicago while I was waiting for my train home at Union Station.  How he would holla to see how I was doing with the bf (at that time).  Come to think of it.  The most memorable phone conversations took place during the coldest days in Chicago...  hahahha  Also during my Hawaii days.  Our communication was limited to only emails because he was out in the sea.  Cheers to good friends  ;)

Gettin late here.  This evening is pretty fruitful.  Get to chat with babe for ONE hour!!!  He has some decision to make which I am in no condition to help nor offer any suggestions.  He wants to buy a house!