Dream sequel

Last night, I had another dream about me in Bangkok -_- Could it be over, soon?
I don't know, I truly believe that my brainwave is still channeling that buddha temple that I don't get to visit. Pffff. It was a bright and shiny day in Bangkok, the sky was so blue. I passed by the temple, I saw a gold plated, huge buddha statue. Instantaneously, calm and peace took over my feelings, it felt good, and in reality, my day went by calmly as well. What are the odds?

I *heart* buddha

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I am still in the process of learning to let go of certain things. I believe this will be my life long lesson.
I love the smell of peppermint, rosemary and cypress...
Son by Four is on repeat on my playlist all day. Speaking of playlist, before iPod existed, 'playlist' doesn't exist, at least not in my dictionary. There are only about 4 songs. But I didn't get tired listening to them. They put me in this very nice state of mind.
Few nights ago, when I was half asleep, all these thoughts came into my mind, something I wanna blog about. As you can see, I couldn't remember any of it! lol That's why I am doing the rambling thing.

Dark, damp and disturbed

That's where I'm at. Again. It'll usually take a couple of days for me to come out of it.
It doesn't help that I saw Public Enemies a few days ago and I'm watching The Lake House now. They both have one thing in common, they were both set in Illinois, mainly Chicago too.
Man I miss it so much, the brutal winter, but I still love it. Chicago is a city full of magic, landscape, buildings, the city grids, really really white thick fluffy snow (before they plow it into a pile of ice), Union Station, Fitness Center that faces the river. and so much more.
Sometimes, I couldn't answer myself why I left Chicago. Sorry lemme rephrase it, Why the hell did I left Chicago.
Will it help if I stop watching The Lake House now? no.
I just wish I explored more when I was there. Going picture crazy like I did now. There isn't any turn back time right?
Oh and also, my favorite grocery store. Shopping at 1 in the morning :)
And Panera bread.
And the fake chinese take out.

Yea, I want to remember my favorite city that way.

JKT-KL-BKK-KL-JKT-KL all in 10 days.

It's been more than a week since I came home from traveling. This time around my traveling didn't involved packing up bikinis and sun screen, which I'd miss so much of it.

I started my journey May 11th to Jakarta, May 13th to KL, May 14th to Bangkok, May 16th to KL, May 17th back to Jakarta and finally home bound on May 20th. The hours that I had in KL was only to repack, two hours of sleep, and boom I'm on my way to the airport.

I had nightmares on several occasions since I came home. Once was about, I came back from traveling, went to the office, and my boss asked me, why are you here? Weren't you suppose to be 'somewhere'. I was thinking to myself, WHAT? I JUST came back and I hadn't have time to unpack and repack. This shit is crazy. In another dream, I arrived somewhere, took a cab and got to the hotel, only to realized, I DID NOT pick up my luggage from the airport!!!! Now just freakin great. Work is about to start and I have no change of clothes. Geeez.

Yes, I love traveling, lots and lots of traveling. But never once, did I not have enough resting time in between destinations.
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Jakarta is... insane, esp the traffic. There are like 20 over million population in just on city! It took me on average 1.5hr to get from one point to another. I kept thinking, why on earth are there so so so many cars in this city? But then I realized, DUH, try to jam ALL the cars in Malaysia in ONE city, that's what you get. INSANE TRAFFIC. Because if I'm not mistaken, Malaysia's population is 28 over million and in metro Jakarta alone is about 24 over million ppl. So yea. The rush hour in Jakarta lasts til about 9pm. lol. On my last night of my second trip in Jakarta, some coworkers took me out for dinner, the traffic was so bad, they suggested that we take 'ojek', I was like HELL NO, I ain't taking that, I'll like fall off and die. And they said, if we took 'ojek' it'll take like 3 mins for us to get to the mall, if we take a cab, it could take up to an hour. I said, I'd rather walk there! So sure enough, we started walking and it only take about 30mins to get to the dinner place. =) Yea, I was quite stubborn. lol I enjoyed it so much, I wouldn't have been able to walk the streets of Jakarta if there weren't any locals to do it with me. =) Very very stoked!

So like another thing about Jakarta that is truly interesting. In the city there is a highway, only cars with 3 passengers and above could take the route during certain hours. So during that certain hours, you will see people lining up alongside of the road, these ppl will actually get into your car IF you needed enough head count to use the highway. LOL. Like you have to PAY them to sit in your car through the highway. I couldn't believe my eyes and my ears when I learn that. I'd be damn happy if cab drivers would pay me to take me into KL.

Oh oh one more thing, so you probably already know Jakarta's traffic is insane (coz I kept talking about it). So like I rarely see traffic police directing traffic ya, what I saw was bunch of ppl "dedicated" themselves into doing just that. For example, in a T-junction, normally we would wait for our turn to cross the road or whatever right? In Jakarta, these ppl will help you to "stop" the coming traffic, and let you pass or go across or whatever. You're like ok, that's cool. BUT, the truth is, you have to pay these dedicated ppl some coins. LOL. That also happens, when you wanna use a short cut in the 'back alley'. It is totally mind blowing to me, how these guys are making a living. Well, you can choose not to pay them but really? Your car might get damaged or something. Nobody wants to take that chance.

Manila's traffic is crazy too, but I ain't see nothing yet until I saw Jakarta's traffic.
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Bangkok is cool. I been there once (for work), but I don't think I'll go back again. They like put fish sauce in all the dishes!!!!! Everywhere I go that all I could smell. One thing though, I didn't get to check out some temples. Bummer. Coz Temple makes me feel how insignificant I am, also, makes me feel content and calm. I *heart* temples, esp Buddhist temples =)
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All and all, it was a great experience, visiting my neighboring countries. I was fascinated by the vast differences we have in our culture and language even though, our countries are so close by on the map. ;)


p.s. If you ever have to go to Jakarta, the cab company that is trust worthy would be BlueBird Taxi. Please beware that not all BlueBirds are made the same.

Lines from The Angel's Game

So far these are my favorite lines from my currently favorite read.

- "I was beginning to consume more coffee and cigarettes than oxygen".
- "'Do you know the best thing about broken hearts?' the librarian asked.
I shook my head.
'They can only be broken once. The rest is just scratches'"
- ".... I took one of them (cigars) and lit it. It had an intense flavor that seemed to hold all the aromas and poisons a man could wish for in order to die in peace."

Esp the second one, almost brought me into tears. Because I couldn't agree more. I mean think about it...

Today's Earth Friendly Tips (4/21/10)

Today’s Earth Friendly Tips (added)

• Buy your fruits and vegetables from a local farmers market.
• If you change your font to Century Gothic you save up to 30% of your ink.
• Use reusable bags when shopping.
• Build up green awareness at your school or company.
• Use reusable glasses/mugs at school or work.
• Plant a tree(s) and alleviate the “Greenhouse Effect”
• Use eco-friendly cleaning supplies.
• Go paperless! If every U.S. household switched to viewing bills online 16.5 million trees would be saved.
• Use fluorescent light bulbs instead of incandescent.
• Remove your name from catalog and junk mail lists.

Yin Yang, & Balance

People said it is better to have just enough- not too much, not too little.
I wonder, does this apply to my feelings towards my job? I have been having a love/hate relationship with it.
I could hate it so much because it made me do things I normally wouldn't.
I could love it so much because it made me push myself beyond the limit, it made me read what I love again, picking up my nutrition text books.
I could love & hate it because it made me deal so much with human beings.
Will this unique relationship get me through another 2 years here?

Will yin yang creates balance in my situation?

Today's Earth Friendly Tips

Today’s Earth Friendly Tips

• Find and purchase products that use less packaging.
• Carpool, use public transportation, walk or bike to work or school.
• Use less water – take a shower instead of a bath, turn off water while brushing your teeth.
• Unplug appliances such as toasters, microwaves, even your phone charger when not in use to save energy.
• Re-program your thermostat a few degrees in the summer and winter (up for air conditioning, down for heating)

Logged into Myspace today and saw this. =)
Pretty cool eh? I will follow at least 4 of the above.

Crazy alert

Thoughts in my head that I didn't have time to link em together yet.
- I don't wanna put my "life" on hold because of someone or something.
- I want to take risks and have fun while at it.
- I want to stay true to the other person.
- If I take the risks and have the fun, I'll feel like I'm cheating on the other person.
- I don't like being cheated on, let alone BE the one who's cheating.
- This is a real challenge for me.
- My head screams, good thing/person will come for those who wait.
- So like should I wait some more?
- Or do I revert to when I was young and do stupid things again?
- I don't know.

Agenda

I believe that everyone, whatever they say or do, they have an agenda.
I believe that only young children do not have agenda, guess because they have the purest of souls.
As those young children grow older, they know that to get something they want (for us adults too), there must be some kind of plan.
I am not here to judge if having an agenda is good or bad.

Let's see if I can make this example make sense. A lonely person, appears to be very helpful and a very good listener. This lonely person is always available when friends needed them. So, does this person really wants to lend an ear and a helping hand? OR just because they are lonely, they needed to be with any human beings therefore appeared to be a helpful person? So the person's hidden agenda would be, they don't wanna be lonely? Does that make sense to you? I thought about this all the time. Why do I spend time to listen or to talk to ppl? Why would ppl spend they time to listen to me? Is it because we are all lonely ppl? Frankly, I do not believe one does not have a hidden agenda at any given day, hour, or minute. Of course unless you are a two year old child. And I also believe that all human beings are selfish beings. Sometimes, I wonder those ppl who got famous by doing their charitable work. Are they really that selfless? OR because they are hunger for fame?


Do you believe this helping hand is utterly selfless and without any hidden agenda?

To-do list

1. Buy a pair of new sneakers. DONE.
2. Brow wax.
3. Send out Erin's gifts.
4. Sort out yes & no clothes, and donate the nos. Doing the de-clustering.
5. Get REALLY organized at work.
6. Get new action book for work. DONE.
7. Save up for an island trip. (I owe it to me)
8. Save up for an Aussie trip. (I just found free lodging, HA!)
9. Save up for a Japan trip. (Hmmm....)
10. Apply the 90-days rule in everything I do. (Totally crossing fingers)

7, 8, & 9 -- that means NO MORE starbucks for me? Oh no~ well, guess I could cheat a little. Doing very poorly with no Starbucks, in fact, Starbucks every freakin day!

Learn something about 'the power of public declaration'. Somethings that you've been wanting/trying to do (great example would be losing weight or quit smoking), once you've put it out there, you are obligated to stick to your goals. Coz you got everyone's eyes on ya, kinda hard to back out anymore right?

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Was saying this to my baby sister the other night: I don't cheat, but I lie. I am not lying, I just don't tell the truth. LMAO. I know I cracked myself up. It almost doesn't make sense.

Something to do with bikini

http://www.merriam-webster.com/top-ten-lists/bikinis-and-bourbon/bikini.html

Today only!

Let's make it to Pulau Redang

Let's make that my next destination. Rare moments of me being proud to be Malaysian... is when I think about P. Redang (also when I lay my eyes on Petronas Twin Towers, e-ve-ry-day, and when I'm sippin on Teh Tarik). Heard so much about it, yet haven't step foot on it. Last year, I made it to Lang Tengah, life undersea is amazing there. P. Redang isn't as good, so I've heard. But how can I not fall in love with it when the stretches of beach there is beautiful. So is the ocean. Dude, I'm so set on going there this year, sometime in May maybe =)

Got distracted by fb. Dude...

I shall leave you with this photo to ponder upon...

People do change

for better or for worse? I am not here to judge.

I am changing...

Like I used to not like having make-up on. I remember back when my friends would get all dolled up in sexy outfits and make-up before we hit the clubs. They tried many many times to convince me to put on gook and gunk on my face. I wasn't able to accept the made up look. I was complaining about the eye shadow being too outrageous, I would also complain about how bad make-up is for my skin, blah blah blah. I was adamant about the au naturel look. I didn't get into make-up til two years ago. and NOW I'm addicted! It is amazing what it can do. Let's not start with the freckles on my cheeks due to sun damaged, something I did when I was young and stoopid. lol. I still love tanning but I'll do it with loads of sunblock, I even started using sunscreen on my face daily. ;) Yea, make-up evens your skin complexion and hide things you don't want ppl to see. Heheheh. It can also make your eyes looks bigger with tricks (my chinese eyes need help). Tons you could do on your face and neck too, for some. I love it!!!!! Shout out to Benefit (girly fun), MAC (like Coach for bags) and Stage (new found love).

The thought of changing... came to me when I heard this lovely song 'Need You Now' on the radio couple of nights ago. It is freakin country. I hope my taste bud isn't slowly changing, it's that scary. Coz I don't like country songs, though I have a song or two that I've collected years ago on my playlist. A good friend of mine introduced me to country songs, even dragged me to country club. Good ol' days. =) My point is, I can't believe I'm finding myself adapting to country songs. If you are not a fan of country music, try listening to the video. Song is pretty good, the video... only so so.

This photo signifies the energy and the spirit of (me) patiently waiting for the arrival of Chinese New Year. Again, I was not a big fan of Chinese New Year. Somehow this year is very special, I actually can't wait for it to be here! I took the initiative to decorate the facade of our house for CNY with the help from Heay, mei & di. One of the reasons for my excitement could came from the fact that I can take long vacation without feeling an ounce of guilty-ness. How neat is that. We shall see how interesting this coming CNY would be. And don't forget about me attending a reunion... This is me doing new/strange/different-things galore.

And here is Need You Now.

Inspired by a New Year letter

I keep in touch with my Nutrition Education prof. In the long letter that she wrote for New Year (updating ppl who knows her), there was one line, and I quote "I’m still trying to figure what I want to be when I ‘grow up.’" Guess how old she is now? Guess Guess Guess... =) She's 67! Yea 67 saying she's still trying to figure what she wants to be when she "grows up". Her passion towards life and what she does is Amazing. Why and who are we to sit here and complain about life and work? We should live our lives like her!

Ah I wish you guys could be reading her letter, each and every words of hers is an inspiration. She's the professor who allows us to correct our work and resubmit numerous times, because she wants to see improvement in us. Who else would take such trouble to read our work over and over and over and over again??? She's the teacher who truly cares. She's the teacher who teaches, leads, guides and inspires...

I've spoken before about we only have a hand full of ten years to live. I am passionate about living life, but through her, I know I can dream more and do more because at 67 she still dreams. At 17, 27, 37, 47, 57, just imagine the potentials that we ALL have!

French Onion Soup from TGI. ok ok lah. The one from Applebees is WAY better.

My favorite Tau Fu Fa in town, can be found at Food Republic @ Pavilion.

What they call Nasi Paprik. Looks yummy doen it?

I have a goal

for the new year.

That is to make new friends. I think my life will appreciate that, I might not know it yet, but my life does. ;) I've took one of the many first steps, I have RSVPed to a primary school Chinese New Year reunion. Oh how's that making new friends? One way to look at it, I was never close to them, I wasn't able to connect with them. I think they totally qualify as strangers. Hence, by meeting up with them in february, that counts as making new friends! =D Brilliant right?

Goal's goal. There bound to be obstacles. Mine is pretty interesting. When I first met someone, I am friendly, kind and helpful as hell. and so they got close to me and like being my friend. But, the closer they are to me, I feel the need to put on some friends repellent. I feel annoyed (by the "stickiness"). I feel drowned in all the need of attention (yuck). I had enough of people needing my attention at work, I don't I don't know why but it is just it. hmmm.... maybe that's why I don't have a lot of friends. and it could very well be one of the reasons why I'm not in a relationship. I am trying to change that to accommodate my goal. I want to see some changes in me, the good kine of course.

If you are one of the few ones who wonders what's up with my picture? The construction in progress is the Hyatt Hotel. In the near future there will be a grand looking tall building in sight, and there will be one less spot in KL skyline...

You bet Imma blog about it

I stupidly left my phone at an atm and lost it.

Yeap. I left my brain at home... I have never lost a phone or anything physical in my life!

Really really sad right now. Can I afford a brand new phone right now? :(

*sob sob* Im so so so so sad. Like no tears kind of sadness yo.

R.I.P. meeiphone.

Only 355 days left in 2010

Thank you so much for today! You guys made today be the best day of my week =) I will always be grateful for having you you you in my life...

I had a great today, in comparison to what I had gone through all this week (which I will spare you the details here). Today was also a treat for me, celebrating my birthday (belated kine). But before I get to claim my treat, I had to haul my ass back down to office for a couple of hours. Hahaha. After that, I head straight home, showered, put on some fresh clothes and makeup and I was out the door, listening to all the latest hits on our local radio station. Oh yea. Suddenly, this very soul-full voice came on. For the life of me, I can't remember where and when I heard that voice before. (To find out the voice belongs to Diane Birch)

Basically I spent my sunday in SS15, good times with the girls. Talkin bout how huge changes are gon happen in the next ten years of our lives. Which is true, the place we were sippin on coffee and tea was a "restaurant" with food stalls ten years ago, talk about change! The dude I went for my hair cut ten years ago now owns his shop with 4 helpers when he only had 1 then, talk about advancement! In this next ten years, we're gon be married, have children, we joke about recycling baby clothes (since it is cheaper and healthier), talk about insane-ness of all those thoughts.

Some ppl have experienced wifehood and motherhood in their 20's, more power to you! But I'm glad I didn't. Sorta like I don't wanna rush into the ending of this chapter of being in my 20's. I like flipping and reading through every single page before I get to THE END. :) All that being said, I still got 3 years left til I hit 30... Hahaha.

When you put your life into chunks of tens, we don't actually have a whole lot of ten years!!! Yea? My 30's is hearing my foot steps. ;) I gotta plan the however many tens I have left best I could. Hmmm....

p.s. I stop doing new year's resolution. But there is one thing I really wanna do this year is to make new friends.